I remember when my mom and Aunt first started weight watchers and Blake and I went over for dinner. They made a WW meal and measured it onto our plates. After dinner I was still starved. I text Blake while he was standing next to me and told him we needed to make a run for the border when we left there. He agreed. We made a run for the border when we left. A year and a half later those damn WW measuring spoons are my life, and so is the gym.
Only I feel bad because I have put losing weight and eating right over top of everything and everyone else. I have maintained my weight loss since September so I wonder what my obsession still is. Last night Blake and I had a talk/yelling match and he brought up that I never care what time he works or what time I work as long as make it to the gym. So for example, we work retail so keep this in mind, lets say on the same day he works 12-9 and I work 1-10, I still get up in the morning and go to the gym and basically make it home in time for him to leave. I told him he sleeps in anyways. He says if he knew I would stay home and spend time with him he wouldn't sleep in. One day last week he did ask me to go to breakfast and I did skip the gym and go. Then when I do that my mind knows I missed a workout and it kills me. I did get a really good workout in on Friday which was supposed to be my off day, so its all good right? The worst part is that after this argument, I went to boot camp tonight from 7-8 knowing Blake got off work at 7. I cared, but didn't at the same time. YIKES!! What have I become? I turn down dinner with my parents to go to the gym. Shena said you will never regret a trip to the gym, and I never do. The feeling I get after a workout is pure satisfaction. But am I missing out on other things and putting the people in my life that I love aside?
Wins: Worked out 5 times last week but had to mix it up. I went way too hard the week before. So I added more weights less running and more elliptical.
Opps: Dinner with the in laws resulted in lots of cheese, shrimp cocktail and chocolate cake. Also we are remodeling a few things. We are painting the living room, kitchen and 1 bathroom. My house is in shambles therefore it gives me anxiety. Then I eat.
What motivated me: My Nike Running app. Knowing those miles upload to FB for everyone to see. I want people to know how far Ive come and yes 5 miles in 50 minutes is something I can do.
I am still using the fit bit and I just got an email congratulating me on 50 miles!! Still working out the calories intake but also counting points in my head as I go along to compare. Ive went over calories almost everyday but I have stayed within points.
Jamie, I have the same struggles! I thought I was crazy! But I hate missing the gym for other functions. I will turn down events and dinners if its happening during my gym time. Not everytime...I will make some exceptions. However, those exceptions slowly turn into ALWAYS skipping the gym, becuase lets be honest life gets in the way. And almost everyday there is something else I can do besides go to the gym.
ReplyDeletemy blog this week touches on this dilemma too-slightly different but same overall idea. all i can say is this...before i started on my journey to lose weight, I was one of those people who "didn't get it" in terms of understanding why someone would rather work out than hang out. i would say "life is short, come hang out"...but that's just it, life is short...and made shorter by not living a healthy lifestyle. so much of hanging out has to do with food (and food that isn't the best for us). why not hang out by working out together? ha ha ha!!! it boils down to this...completely different lifestyle focus. perhaps sit down with family members to say "I want to join you for family gatherings...can we do it on my availability?" or just resolve yourself to meet up later or earlier so that you can stick with your routines. on the flip side, explore your values, rank them. disucss them with your loved ones and talk about it. you never know what you can learn about yourself & what they can learn about you in the process.
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies!! I appreciate the support. Im glad you can relate.
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